I am grateful for the gift of grace God granted me to live for 31 years. I thought I would have died at 22, but God delivered and forgave me for my sins and I love him for freeing me from being a slave of sin and demonic oppression. I'm glad I've been a virgin for 31 years. With God, I know self-control is possible. Although the feeling of loneliness is still there even though I have Jesus. I wish I was married to a man. I've never shared romance with a guy. And never had sex yet this desire has built inside me since my teen years. I don't want to sin against God by fornicating unmarried. I don't want to throw away what God freed me from. I just wish I was married with a man so this loneliness would go away.