I just don't get how I keep getting stuff I want sometimes when I'm this rude. I'm so rude I even think I don't deserve nice things myself. I'm just really confused. I'm very slow, literally at anything. I just feel like God's wasting His time on me. No, I don't want to give up but it's just so tiring. I know people would say "Don't give up, Gods still here, His testing you, His preparing you for stuff his about to give you." I know. I have bad anxiety and other crazy stuff. I just can't sit still. I really need help, I know God is the only help I need but Idk. I know whatever I pray for won't be fulfilled right away. But how do I know if His answered me already, or I'm just wasting my time hoping for somethings that's actually bad for me.