Hello sibling in Christ, I have those same moments as well, and they can certainly be frustrating, however it's important to remember it's the Enemy putting the doubts and fears into your mind, not God. God is always good and though he feels far, he's never really distant. He loves us so much he's willing to stand at our door and knock until we open it to him. Continue to be in His Word, reading the Scriptures, the Epistles, and Jesus will not let go of His sheep. He is our Shepherd, our Lord, and our Savior and Friend. God is near to the broken-hearted and its encouraging to realize that our efforts to walk with God are so powerful and such a threat to the devil's agenda that he's trying to tear us down. Our weapon is God's divine Word, prayer, faith, hope, and love. I'll be praying for you and I love you, more importantly God loves you, just keep going, keep growing. <3

I know what you mean, sometimes I feel so connected with God and other days I feel very distant, it happens sometimes but we have to power through