I am there

I have been there as well

i feel you i understand this feeling all too well as i go through it myself, what i’ve learned though is that you cannot commit the unforgivable sin accidentally it has to be an intentional, cold, hardening of your heart to the Lord and since you’re worrying about it that shows that your heart is still sensitive to the Lord i have worried myself sick before aswell because i get sacrilegious intrusive thoughts that i don’t want and it causes feelings of distress and anxiety because i thought i was committing the unforgivable sin and honestly i still am worried now especially since im trying to take baby steps towards walking with Christ i find myself wondering if i have committed the unforgivable sin and God isn’t hearing my prayers but i know i just have to stay strong and keep faith that i can grow through him and i believe you can and will too because God knows your heart and he knows that whatever you’re going through is something you’re not doing to offend or mock him and he is all forgiving and merciful to those that genuinely seek him and i believe that everyone’s journey with God is theirs alone and it doesn’t always come easy but with time as you grow it will come naturally the goal is that we give God our best and show him our imperfections because we aren’t meant to be perfect ❤️