When you try your best to grow in your faith and please Jesus, you may think you are still denying God, and you may think about stuff like: God is will be warning me... God wants to tell me something.. God needs me to do this.... God wants me to do this... But guess what? God doesn't even need you to do everything for him, nor does he need you to please him, he doesn't need anyone. Like, he is self sustainable... God doesn't want us to things for him, he needs us to do things WITH HIM*. Why not for him? Because it's impossible to please the Lord by our own actions. If we can, we don't need a saviour, except for Jesus, no one is perfect, all has fallen short of the glory of God. And that's how great God is, that's why he sent down his son to die for us. Now we *can work together WITH GOD. NOT FOR GOD. When we say "do it for God", it's like following God like a boss... But take heart, God is your friend. Don't be too anxious. God doesn't want to blame you nor did he want anyone to perish. If God was like a boss in your job, when you make God furious, you would have died immediately. But, Truth is, God sees your failure as a part of THE GREATER PLAN of SPIRITUAL successment in your life. And yet we don't know God's plan for us. God already sees us before we even sinned. He isn't a boss.. he is your FRIEND. When you fall short (everyone did it every single day), God sees you, he will help you if you accept him, you have overcome that sin *with God*. Yep, it's that simple. Be more Grateful and try to serve otherd too, so that you can be overwhelmed with THE LOVE for of Jesus.