hey man i js want you to know that God or the Holy Spirit aren't feelings or emotions, and i know that alot of christian preachers keep on talking abt "Gods/Holy Spirits presence" but its not always a feeling, you get me? so if at times you don't "feel" His presence, its not bad news, God isn't limited to communicating with us only by our emotions and feelings. God bless

Praying for you and you need to seek out a Bible preaching church that operates in the gift of deliverance of I knew your area I would help find you one That is a demonic pull and **rn addiction is attacking many of gods men and some women It fights us all and get rid of guilt and shame and resentment forgiving yourself There is no condemnation for those that are in Christ We have a real enemy and spiritually we are at war you have to talk to someone and feel free to reach out and I will walk you through basic self deliverance We cant overcome things of bondage without Jesus and we unaware take things back from his hands Surrender all anxious and negative thoughts to him I feel the spirit of the lord saying yoi are worthy and loved Matthew 6:33 But seek you first the Kingdom of heaven and all his righteousness and all things shall be added to you and Isaiah 40:31 those that wait upon the lord shall be renewed they will mount up on wings like eagles they shall run and not grow weary they shall walk and not faint. When they get you to fall into this yoi spill your seed and in the spirit they are feeding off your energy to remain abstinent will build your energy back up a youtube channel called Marc the Messenger ha amazing videos on this Dont let Satan block you from god

May God help you