Hello, good evening!! I wanted to share and also vent a little!! I met God after an adolescence of drugs, parties, alcohol, etc. I had a calling from God in the church I attended, but I wasn't growing spiritually. I couldn't speak well in my cell group, which consisted of me and three people, and I wasn't progressing. I stepped down from leadership, and after two weeks of prayer, God gave me the word from ISAIAH 52:13. I returned to leadership completely different. God did things in me that I didn't feel capable of doing. I went out to evangelize without fear of anything and focused on those who were using drugs, and there I gave a word of faith. I had a cell group that wasn't growing, with four people including me, and in less than two months, I had three thriving cell groups. I preached at an encounter and was a person totally used by God.

Unfortunately, today I am no longer with Him. About 7 or 8 years ago, I left the church because there were things that weren't right, and unfortunately, I left angry with God (today I see that place as a school where God taught me His purpose). But I've been in drugs for 7 or 8 years, worse than before, asking God to please let me feel that beautiful love, and nothing happens, I feel nothing. I've gone to churches and nothing. I'm tired of the situation I'm in. What advice would you give me? I'm no longer angry with God, but I am with people because where I went, they wouldn't let me be used by God. They always limited me, telling me I had to obey my spiritual leaders, but they made me disobey God and a bunch of other things, and all that doesn't let me return. I'm tired, hitting rock bottom like never before.