hey guys! im a 16yr old girl whos trying to get closer to God.. however, sometimes I fall short and stop reading my bible and I get super lazy.. I have a huge problem with cussing and not listening to my Father.. Ever since I got separated from my mom I stopped reading my bible every single day and I stopped having the fire in my stomach for God.. Its like ever since I came to live with my Dad I lost all motivation to do simple things for the Lord.. Sometimes In the middle lf the night I always get these thoughts like “If you were to die right now where would you go??” and i always get super scared and I always say that Ill start reading my bible but I never do… I just need help and I want to stop being lazy and i wannt get closer to God ges the only person who understands me and actually knows me deep down..