Hi please pray for me. I’m a 28 y old woman scared of falling back into sexual sin. I haven’t watched porn in a year and a half . I’m resisting the urge to watch porn, but it’s even harder to resist thinking about extremely inappropriate shows I used to watch because they’re funny or have “likable” characters. It’s awful. I detest it. I try to resist by repenting and praying, but when they come at work, I can’t worship out loud. It’s so hard. I’m going to prop up my Jesus icon at work tomorrow and hopefully that will help get my mind off of bad things if I’m thinking them at work. I also need to buy a plaque with a Bible verse too to put on my desk.

But also, I pray multiple times everyday, but my prayer life is becoming weaker. I listen to the Bible while I’m on the go rather than sitting down and reading it. I need to worship more. I’m so distracted on my phone watching instagram. I’m trying to scare myself to fear God again and also think about His love. He does not PLAY when it comes to sexual immorality because I’ll go to the lake of fire forever if I keep at it with lustful thoughts. Also, Romans 8 talks about death being the end result of living according to the flesh.

I feel like what Peter described in 2 Peter about a dog returning to its own vomit. I don’t want to fall away ever again. I need to cling to Jesus as close as I can. I ask Him for His mercy almost everyday and tell Him this too. I’m scared of falling away and being in a worse state than before. I dont want to be overcome by these thoughts. I want to be holy and free from these awful thoughts.