A month ago, I left everything behind for the second time, returning to Mexico without having finished my studies. Today, I live with my aunt because my mom, due to drugs, has no stability. I've always been with my two siblings since I'm the oldest, and you don't know how exhausting it is. Today, my schoolmates are graduating, and I feel so miserable and inadequate for having "nothing." You don't know how much I love studying and going to school, and how my plans were ruined because of my mom. I'm really fed up with all of this. My last few years have been a mess, and I always ask God, "Why is this happening to me?" "Will I ever have the stability I so desire, or will I be compensated?" Believe me, I really don't know what to do. No matter how much help is offered to my mom, I don't see any change, and it makes me so angry because we depend solely on her. Despite having cancer, she prefers to waste the years God is giving her on that vice, filling us with false promises. :(