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Hi! I’ve never posted here before but I desperately need help. I don’t know what’s wrong with me! Could someone please pray for me?

I keep getting these horrible, awful intrusive thoughts I can’t even name or place that tell me I’m not a “true” and “genuine” believer and born again believer and that I don’t have true faith and believe in God/Jesus and am not saved somehow. Basically thoughts telling me I never truly believed or that I was somehow created to not belong to God/Jesus or that I’m not His child and that terrifies me so much!!

It could be OCD, but I don’t know! I don’t know what the problem is and I wish I knew! And I’m terrified what God/Jesus thinks of me then and I just want and need to be His now and forever and ever eternally and I’m terrified to die and just want to be His child/daughter now and forever! I’m terrified my longing is fake and that I’m not His and I’m terrified then what He thinks of me!

And I’ll constantly use online stuff and ai for reassurance over and over and over and I don’t want to put anything above Him and then I’m scared I’m trying to get answers from something else and not from God/Jesus!! But what I ask it is like for reassurance about being His and saved and just a list of stuff reminding me I belong to Him or reassuring me my belief and faith is genuine and that He’s chosen me and I’m His. Though then I’m terrified I’m somehow trying to speak for God and I’m so scared I just need to be His! And I just want and need everything to be ok forever and I’m scared to die and just need an intimate, loving, personal relationship with Him now and forever!

Sorry for the messy post I’m horrible at getting my thoughts together. Thank you so much.

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. . 3 weeks ago
i feel you i understand this feeling all too well as i go through it myself, what i've learned though is that you cannot commit the unforgivable sin accidentally it has to be an intentional, cold, hardening of your heart to the Lord and since you're worrying about it that shows that your heart is still sensitive to the Lord i have worried myself sick before aswell and i’m currently worrying myself right now because i get sacrilegious intrusive thoughts that i don't want and it causes feelings of distress and anxiety because i thought i was committing the unforgivable sin and honestly i still am worried now especially since im trying to take baby steps towards walking with Christ i find myself wondering if i have committed the unforgivable sin and God isn't hearing my prayers but i know i just have to stay strong and keep faith that i can grow through him and i believe you can and will too because God knows your heart and he knows that whatever you're going through is something you're not doing to offend or mock him and he is all forgiving and merciful to those that genuinely seek him and i believe that everyone's journey with God is theirs alone and it doesn't always come easy but with time as you grow it will come naturally the goal is that we give God our best and show him our imperfections because we aren’t meant to be perfect if we were then Jesus died for nothing ❤️ if you need to talk i would love to since i feel like we can relate to one another in this
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Spéranda Djeni 1 month ago
You know what's written 365 times in the Bible? "Do not be afraid or discouraged, for God is with you. Therefore, do not be afraid, for God will always be with you, even in the realm of the dead," said the psalmist. So whatever the situation, do not be afraid, and believe and cling to Him.
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Aaron Hofmann 1 month ago
I can understand you, I also felt like God wasn't with me, like he was disappointed in me, like he wasn't forgiving me, so I asked him for a sign and at first I felt like someone was holding my hands but that somehow wasn't enough for me, so I asked him for another sign and I suddenly saw a big shadow on my closet like that was someone's back, he was very tall and he moved you to me and then I somehow knew right away that this would be God must. After a second, the shadow disappeared
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Romans 8:38-39

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

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