This is spiritual warfare! Put on the full armor of God (Ephesians 6). Pray against spiritual apathy. Declare out load that you rebuke the spirit of apathy! If you can identify and lies you are believing, give them up to God and repent for them. God is quick to forgive and will deliver you from the lies. Ask the Holy Spirit to guide you in identifying what the spiritual root of all this is. The enemy makes a stronghold where we are weak. Spend time in scripture daily to help in renewing your mind (Roman’s 12:2). Jesus’s blood breaks all chains. Praying the blood of Jesus over yourself. Look into deliverance ministries, possibly. Find someone to come along side you in this season. Praying for you.