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Could someone please pray for me? I’m so incredibly disgusted with myself. I’m trapped in my body and soul and don’t know how to get out. This absolutely debilitating OCD or whatever it is, is horrible. I’m stuck inside myself and can’t get out! I would do anything to be someone else!

I’m terrified I’m somehow not a true, born again believer and chosen by God/Jesus and His child/daughter now, forever, eternally. I’m so scared there’s no place prepared for me with Him. I’m scared of everything! I don’t know what to do, I had a breakdown yesterday where I couldn’t stop crying and I’m so gross. I’m so scared to die too!! I’m so disgusting and terrified I was made as a vessel of wrath and He already sees my eternity seperated from Him!

I just want to be His now and forever and ever but then I’m terrified I don’t even believe and have real faith! But then I’m terrified it’s dependent on me “believing” and I can’t do it myself! I need Him!! I just need to know I’m His now and forever. I just want Him to hug me and to be like a little kid and be safe and ok forever and with Him. I’m so scared then too that I somehow don’t love Him! This list goes on and on. I’m so disgusting. I don’t know how to escape myself and I’m trapped! I don’t know what’s wrong with me!

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Tabatha
Tabatha Beckum 1 day ago
I’ve been where you are. What God lead me to realize is that he was trying to call me to focus on him and not the situation or emotions. He transformed me when I did that. But also remember that God WILL use this for his glory. You just have to submit. Don’t give up even when it’s hard, because God understands it’s hard. Without God we can’t do anything, he’s the only one who can transform us. I feel like God wants you to know that the feeling of the weight of the world being on your shoulders is only temporary. He knows you better than anyone. He wants you more than you can imagine. He’s just asking that you seek him and turn your eyes to him- even when it’s hard to believe. God has mercy and peace and comfort. He will restore you ❤️💗❤️
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Ebony
Ebony Crawford 18 3 days ago
I have felt and feel like this often. I know it’s hard to let this be heart knowledge instead of just head knowledge but please remember that Gods word is fully true and according to Gods word the only way to be saved is to believe that Jesus is the son of God and He died on the cross for the sins of the world. It doesn’t matter if you have doubts. Doubts are lies from the enemy and they are temporary feelings. The fact that you are worried about it shows you know who Jesus is and that’s all it takes. It’s not the strength of our faith and faith is a gift from Him. We don’t have to conjure it up on our own. If you’ve said yes He’s got you even when you worry He doesn’t. It doesn’t depend on you. He’s already done it for you. The enemy wants you to believe it depends on you but once you’ve said yes and you’re thinking of Him at all then you’re good.
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Bible Verse for this Prayer

Romans 8:38-39

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

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