I do not know the feeling I am experiencing. I have missed myself, and the Lord found me. The stages I went through were difficult at the time, with conflicts in emotions, thoughts, needs, and spirituality. There was conflict in everything, and my direction was not clear. I was sailing in a stormy sea, and due to the abundance of pain at that time, I wanted to drown because I was living as if dead. But the Lord Jesus, my Savior, came at a time when I had failed in everything. The good shepherd who searches for his sheep and finds them came from afar and found me, and began with me a path that removed all darkness from me. The Lord Jesus gradually removes the darkness from us, so we should not fear this gradual process because it is healthy, despite the time it takes for the darkness to dissipate. What matters is that we hold onto Him and take refuge behind Him. There are many battles we go through, and the most difficult are the psychological battles. I take refuge in You, my Lord Jesus, I am the sinner, forgive me my sins, help me, and guide me, Lord, in my life so that my life may be for You. I offer You, my Lord Jesus, myself because You are the one who found it. You are the greatest potter, and we are all in Your hands. Use us, my Lord, and protect us from ourselves and from the evil one. Give us, Lord, the wisdom to understand and comprehend Your words.