Hi Logan. I won’t pretend to know exactly how you feel and I don’t know what your situation is. I do relate to you in the sense that I have one distant friend from college but no friends or community to spend time with or lean on. I pray that you continue to seek God (Luke 11:9-11) and I believe he will answer you in ways that you aren’t expecting. I’m saying this as someone who is still going through many seasons of doubt, loneliness, depression, etc. God has shown up and given me moments of grace and true peace and I pray that you experience that too if you haven’t already. God hasn’t forgotten about you and he is there with you even when it doesn’t feel that way. I fight against these thoughts and feelings often. Talk to him. Bring all your frustrations, loneliness, and even anger about what’s going on to him. He can handle it and he wants to hear from you. I hope this can encourage you. Keep fighting my brother 🙏🏽