Hello everyone. I feel sometimes friends and family around me don’t give me the emotional support I need so that’s why I’m am here asking for prayer. Currently going through separation with my husband that discarded me. It’s been roller coaster sometimes I feel it was god’s purpose because he isn’t for me and bc before he decided to not want the responsibility of relationship anymore and not wanting to change bc it wasn’t worth it since we have fight alot that he also fail the test by being attracted to his new coworker of the job we’ve been praying and waiting for him to be stable and then he decides to give up when things for difficult. Makes me feel he was just finding a replacement or he really just broken as well for my mistakes as well and she is just distraction for him. I don’t know if god separated us to bring us back later on after he repents and has work on himself or he is just not for me. My heart tells me otherwise he is but my mind and needs tells me he isn’t bc he didn’t fulfill my spirit entirely and idk maybe I was idolizing hm too
Much and lost focus on god, and I felt he lost focus on god himself too. We both were in survival mode as well. It’s been 3 months and he ask for divorce recently and I’m just confused and sad bc I’m trying to move on but my memories and heart tells me otherwise and at the same time have to deal my legal status here in the U.S, identity crisis, planning on moving out but afraid of change and career wise I just feel lost all over. I believe in god but sometimes is just sucks I feel he betray me and deep in my heart I wish we both start over again or just ask god to remove any attachment and any idea and feelings I have for him so I can heal. I know is making me feel alone but it’s been struggle because I have been in this state for 2 years and haven’t found solid Christian’s friends to grow with. I need prayers bc I feel I lose hope sometimes on myself or my faith and I’m afraid to feel so lost to just not wanting to be here anymore sometimes