is it okay to take a break from the faith? i feel like right now im extremely stressed out because i feel like ive forced myself into getting serious about this when i wasn’t ready and i feel like i keep making excuses and i know part of this is because i can’t handle change and im comfortable in my lifestyle but im also scared and i dont want to ruin my relationship with God is it okay if for a while my only progress is trying to pray every morning and night and grow closer to him first? i feel so confused and overwhelmed and like i dont know what to do and i know i should pray and i have but i feel like im lacking guidance from the community around me and ive tried looking on tiktok but thats only scared me more and i feel so much anxiety about this because i feel like im worried about if ill make it to heaven then im worried about if my family will make it to heaven i cant even sleep now because i kept overthinking in my sleep and waking myself up? and nothing is really giving me the knowledge that im seeking because its always just pray or give it time and i know that part of this is because im an impatient person but i feel so conflicted like i want to grow closer with God but i also just want to be a 15 year old aswell and fit in and i feel very overwhelmed and i dont want my religion to cause me more distress than peacefulness because thats not how it should be and i dont want to start resenting my religion if i force myself to keep going and i exhaust myself because i spent the past two days going down rabbit holes and scaring myself and crying in guilt and shame and just the sheer mixed emotions and i feel like i regret doing this to myself like ive put this pressure on myself to just fix everything right away now and ive always known that i need to fix my lifestyle and i think about it everyday but i just never have the will to and i hate it not a day goes by where religion isnt on my mind and im so scared but whats even worse is i dont know if im building a relationship with God solely because i just dont want to go to hell or out of genuine love and to be honest i think it’s because i don’t want to go to hell but i know there is some love to it and i feel so confused about my emotions because i find christianity beautiful and it makes me so happy but i dont want to force this commitment if im not ready but i also know part of that is because i just want to stay in my sin like i enjoy making dirty jokes, i enjoy lusting, i enjoy the way im living and honestly im not even ready to start asking to want to find the will to give this up and the other part of me just wants to give up at this point so i need someone to tell me if its okay for me to just start with praying every morning and night because i feel like thats manageable for me where im at and it doesnt cause me extreme anxiety or a feeling of being pressured into doing like how i feel when i think about forcing myself to change my lifestyle please i need real guidance because i dont want to start resenting my religion over anxiety that is caused by the world and not God