I can understand your struggles. My walk with Jesus has not been the best in itself. My friend said this to me once and it really has helped me: on a scale of 1-10, do you think you’re going to heaven? And if you answer anything but 10, did Jesus die for 20% of your sins? 30%? 50%? No, but he died for 100% of your sins. And about promising to consecrate yourself to god; we are weak. What are human beings other than dust from the earth? Our promises are nothing. Try not to promise things to God because it is highly likely you will break that promise, which will only make you feel guiltier. I hope you have a great walk with Jesus and a great day/night. Here’s a verse I hope will encourage you. John 8:36) “so if the son sets you free, you will be free indeed.” May my advice be of help. ❤️ Glory to god in the highest, and on earth peace to people of good will.

God is your loving father. He will not punish you. He wants to help you go on the good path in life. Even the prodigal son was accepted after all the evil he did. Jesus said this story. He is loving and forgiving. He knows you are human. Just try to stay next to him and sin will lose its power over you.

Focus on God dont be scared that is the enemy, trust that God will make a way for you out of your sins and he will always be with you In Jesus name Amen