Try to fast i pray for you

If you've never fasted while reading his Word, I highly recommend it. Just a light fast; postpone one meal. It creates a powerful bond with the Lord that makes you feel his love and comfort. It's quality time with the Lord. Also say the Lord's prayer over and over again.

Before I share my testimony, I just want to say that you’re not alone, that I see you.. I’m a 15-year-old girl, and I’ve been in your shoes. When I was around 11 or 12, I started experiencing certain feelings I didn’t really understand. I gave into them without understanding that it was wrong. (Masturbation) What I didn’t realize was that I was feeding the spirit of lust itself..feeding my flesh. They grew stronger, while my spirit weakened. I was raised in a Christian environment, but I didn’t truly understand how spiritual life is. I didn’t know that the choices we make can impact us spiritually and open spiritual doors; doors that we can’t close on our own. (Depending of course..) When I got my first phone at 12, I started looking at things I shouldn’t have. It started with small things that seemed harmless, but little by little, they led me down a darker path. Watching explicit animations.. that grew into me listening to porn, looking at images of porn until that led me to the website. By the time I was 13, I realized it was wrong. But it was already to late, I was already hooked..I knew it was hurting God’s heart, but I still didn’t fully understand the spiritual side. I felt ashamed, dirty, and like I had to hide. That led me into depression, anxiety and self harm, those I still struggle with to this day. I remember crying out to God, “Lord, please take this away from me.” But deep down, I knew that if I truly loved Him, I had to be willing to let it go. God can help us, but we have to be willing to turn away from the things that pull us away from Him. When I was 14, I felt tempted again one night and looked at pictures that led me to a website.. but this time, I didn’t feel comfort or escape or enjoyment.. I saw what it was for the first time; sin. A demonic lie from the pits of hell. A trap. A spiritual trap. Satan knows he can’t fill the holes in your heart, so he sends temporary relief, which makes you desire more and more. Blinds us from the fact that Christ has the permanent solution… But that night, I cried out to God. I wept and begged for forgiveness. I promised Him that I would never go back, and I’ve kept that promise since. And I will keep it until I take my last breath. But I still had another struggle, one I kept falling into no matter how hard I tried. I couldn’t beat that.. I couldn’t go 3-4 days without it. But about 3 months ago, I came across a video that talked about how beautiful God’s design for marriage is, and how He created intimacy to glorify Him and bring a husband and wife’s souls together. Then I watched another video that talked about how masturbation can open spiritual portals. It can affect you, your family.. your mental state. Rang a few bells. But then she explained how she woke up one night getting raped by a demon, and in that moment, I felt my whole body go numb. I felt weak, disgusted, ashamed, and overwhelming fear to get out of that room. I gagged and ran, but as I ran out I felt like something was chasing me, something was in that room trying to get me. I haven’t masturbated since.. and I never will again. The enemy lies. He’ll say, “Just this once, then you’ll stop.” But right after, he turns around after you’ve done it and goes, “Why did you do that? How COULD you do that?” he traps people, with guilt and shame, until they just give up. But don’t believe that lie.. Please, run from it. The enemy only comes to steal, kill, and destroy (John 10:10). But Jesus came to give you life, peace, and freedom. You’re not disgusting. You’re not alone. You’re not too far gone. God loves you, and He’s ready to help you break free. You just have to run to Him. Flee from your sin. I’m sorry if this wasn’t explained good, it’s 4 am-