Hey! I can totally relate to this struggle I'll recommend reading the book, 'Awe of GOD', by Minister John Bevere. One thing he highlighted is how a lot of people love the LORD but struggle in their walk with Him because they don't fear Him. The fear of the LORD will change everything. Also, I pray that the LORD will change your appetite. May you hate what He hates and love only the things He loves. May every desire for sin be put to death by the power of the Holy Spirit, and may you become more aware of how much the LORD loves you. His love for you is not dependent on what you do or do not do but on the truth that He loves you, chooses to do so, and will forever love you.

Hi Aya. I want you to know that your sins do not distance you from God. They should draw you closer because without Jesus you are not sanctified but with Him, you are. You are no longer a sinner when you accept Jesus into your heart and believe in Him that anything is possible with Him in your life. You are created a new creature in Christ. A child of God. Stop identifying with your sin because it’s not God who is condemning you, it’s the devil. Jesus did not come to condemn us but to save us. Take heart in knowing that if you have Jesus in your heart, He will change you. The Holy Spirit lives in you. I love you and God loves you and the fact that you know you are sinning is the Holy Spirit working in you. Don’t trust your heart, trust the word of God above all things.