hi y’all. i need advice, im not sure what to do.

so the last few weeks i’ve been feeling like i was losing my friends. i thought i was losing the friend who was always here for me and i thought would always be. i’ll call her M so last week one of my other friends i’ll call her A, blew up on me and said a lot of hurtful stuff and said stuff that i did (that i never did any of the stuff she said). i texted M and asked her who’s side she was on and why she didn’t stand up for me. She sent a really long msg, long story short. she is not on my side. i talked with M in person the next day and she didn’t even bring up anything from the text. that day A asked if i was mad at her from the day before and i said no, and i forgave her. i told A that i just wish she had told me smth sooner.

Next thing… a few days later i was at home doing nothing and M facetimed me. she was with a few other people hanging out. that hurt me bc i wish they invited me to hang out. I texted M later and asked if the next time they hung out if they could invite me and M said “well i wasn’t the one who planned it so i can’t control it” and by the way she’s been acting, she seemed mad. I don’t know what to do. i feel broken and the only one i can talk to is God and my parents. idk what to do.