Te entiendo amigo mio, yo he pasado por eso y mucho, orare por ti, y tambien quiero recomendarte un libro para acabar con eso y ser finalmente libre, se llama TFM (The Freedom Model) estoy leyendo el principio y te lo recomiendo muchísimo, bendiciones y suerte amigo mío.

I also went six months without falling, but then I stumbled again. However, God was teaching me something, we must have the right perspective: these temptations that God allows are opportunities to crucify our fleshly desires. Imagine this if God had already given you your spouse, would you still choose to sin? God has shown me that lust can destroy not only relationships but entire families. Right now, He’s working in me, teaching me that there may not be consequences at this moment but if I don’t fully let go of lust, there will be serious consequences in the future. I encourage you (and myself) to adopt the mindset that we are in a relationship with God and if He had given you your spouse today, would you still fall into sin, even knowing they are right there beside you? Be like Joseph he ran away from lust

Who the sin sets Free is Free indeed. Keep the Faith and keep trusting the Lord for complete deliverance.

I know what it feels like. I understand you must be feeling a lot of guilt, but I promise you, God will forgive you. You may feel ashamed and unworthy to be in his presence, but that's just the devil trying to bring you down. God wants you to come to him. When a child falls, he runs into his father's arms, not away from them. I pray you find the guidance a nd peace you seek