I ask for help in my walk With God I struggle with relying on him when I have fear and anxiety, and I feel like lately I've just been so distant from him and I want to just get to know him and love him and see him as a friend. But lately, I feel like I've been so distant and I've had no energy and been so tired that I'm not getting closer to him or even praising and worshiping him and I feel like something is stopping me. I'm not sure what and I've confessed sin and I'm not sure what else could be stopping me. Now that I type this the only thing I can think of is, that I did it with someone multiple times and it was wrong but I enjoyed it. The bad thing is he has a girlfriend too. I regret that as much as I miss it and it's wrong to miss it and I regret cheating on people too and I realized there was this older person who I dated kind of and me and him talked dirty to each other now and then sending pics and I used to send pics and talk to a bunch of people since I was freaky. Also, I cheat on one of my exes. I have a pornography addict and been trying to stop it. I just need to repent from all my sins but I'm scared because I've done so much wrong and it feels good to admit it and I need to let the dark come to light and start anew. But I'm so lost and feel hopeless even though I love God and he does so much great things.