Hi. I have some treatment resistant amnesia and hallucinations. I’m learning that there’s only so much doctors can do to help me. I’m learning to make the most of the life I do have. So often I’m encouraged to just try one more medication or therapy, but really it’s the Lord who heals. I’m under no duty to make these people feel useful and to give them a job. It’s not wrong to find acceptance or peace, but I wish I could be affirmed in it. Some things are just not solvable at this point and it isn’t my fault, I dont need to just try harder; I’m not giving up etc. Everyone feels guilty so they tell me to have hope to make themselves feel better. It hurts.