Dear my sister and brothers in christ, My walk with christianity is very bumpy i’ve walked away from God and came back at least 10 times. When i was first saved that was the longest period i was in christ, during those days christ was my #1 i was in my word almost daily and was closest to him i’ve ever been. Ever since i fell from christ ive had periods where i would find him again then fall back im in a cycle. I take responsibility i know that God doesn’t push me away it is me who falls back. I’ve noticed when i fall away from God it’s for the same reasons like me having a plan for my life that doesn’t align with his, my masturbating addiction pushing me from him and me not reading my word and feeding my flesh daily. I know these things are not right and i need to stop but it is easier said than done. I have this cycle of leaving and returning to God it is so bad that when i return sometimes i don’t even take myself seriously because i know by next month i will be back in my own ways. I have many other issues also. Please pray for me that I can end this cycle, find God and stay with him for the rest of my days.✝️❤️