I'm stuck. In a loop of sin. It feels like I can't repent, like I trust God. I'm falling away but I don't want to. I wanna live for Jesus but it's so hard. I fear ill get left behind. I have hate in my heart, I started committing sins I thought I repemted of. I'm doubting, I'm losing faith in Jesus. I don't even know If the spirits on me anymore and I have intense scrupulosity it's a mental disorder where you doubt everything and have horrible intrusive thoughts that cause intense anxiety and it's so had it feels each day I'll never improve and like I'm just doomed and I love Hesus but I feel a weird feeling of anger toward him and I'm not sure why. I'm a christian, but I'm so weak, God's word is so hard to keep, so hard to trust in Jesus grace cuz then these thoughts pull up.. I'm ashamed of his word... I feel like a failure. Please pray to help me grow guys, please I need a prayer
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me.
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