I don't know where to start, I'm overwhelmed. I feel like I'm not ready for adult life. In two weeks I'm starting college and I'm scared. I pray for the banishment of sadness, anxiety and fear, I pray to meet good people and integrate, to be able to make friends. I pray that God will put order in my life on all levels and calm it down.

I feel nostalgic, last year, on this day, on September 14th, I formalized my relationship with the most wonderful, kind and gentle boy in the world. Last year at this time it was a very happy time, I had friends, high school was going well, my partner was perfect. Now everything is the exact opposite. The relationship didn't work out, he is now consumed by hatred, he hates me, he is disgusted by me, he humiliates and offends me... yet I can't forget that gentle boy... I still love him, but now he is cruel. Today was supposed to be our anniversary... on this occasion, I want to pray to God to give this boy all the good in the world, only beautiful things, to get the highest grades in his final exams, to enter the desired college, to be protected from any person who has bad intentions, to not fall into the passion of gambling, money, women, substances. I hope that God will be with him at every step and that my prayer will reach him. I thank him for loving me and treating me with such care.