I feel like lately my pleas have not been heard. This year, especially in the last 3 months, I have accepted many disappointments, I have endured many insults, humiliations, denigrations, I have lost the boy I love and I have no friends. I'm tired of always saying, "God willing" after every disappointment just to not be angry and pretend it doesn't affect me. I... don't know how to control my emotions, I have depression and anxiety, I think I'm a toxic person. I can't keep people around me, even though I've never intentionally hurt anyone, I always hurt them somehow and they end up hating me, everyone thinks I'm so bad. I didn't get into the college I wanted, I got into another one, I'm not complaining, but I'm so afraid that I'll be alone, that I won't fit in, or that things will be even worse, I pray every day to meet good people but since it seems that nothing I want comes true, I'm terrified. I went to the gym and I liked it but I can't go alone, I'm too scared, I'm left with no people to go with. I don't know if any of this message made sense, I wrote it with tears in my eyes and in a loud voice. vulnerable. I hope you all have a good life, Amen! May God take care of everyone.