I am very new to this Christianity, at least I am sure that I am developing a relationship with God. Matthew 7:26-27 describes exactly that my life is my life and I have reached the point where I can no longer live my life without God. My soul needs Him.
If I am honest, I was afraid of God, I was afraid of what would happen if I gave my life to Him. Strange right? But the truth is that I have never experienced unconditional love, I can't believe that I deserve it, I can't believe that I deserve it, because I got it from people, so I put God in a box. I thought that I had to be perfect in order for Him to accept and deserve His love.
Today is the 3rd day that I have consciously tried to seek Him, as I journaled this morning and asked myself what I need to do to feel it? I heard this word "fast" in my head, so I will fast for 7 days and give up all my bad habits and focus on God instead. I would like to feel closer to Him at the end and finally be able to believe that God loves me the way I am. Because I know this is the truth, but I struggle to believe it.
I ask you to help me with a prayer, I can't talk about this in my environment. Thank you to everyone who is thinking of me, and anyone who is struggling with something similar knows that they are not alone.
God bless you and your families. 🙏🏻
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
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